Fred Exley was born on March 28, 1929
into the small community of Watertown, New York, where
his father Earl was the local football hero. And on its
most superficial level, Exley's thinly disguised autobiography
is the record of one who could do nothing to slip from
behind his father's shadow. But this is a special book.
It's more than its story, so much more than its expressive
and accurate prose, and perhaps a million times more than
its alcoholic author. For A Fan's Notes is that
scarcest of all literary objects: it's a product of love
and self-inquiry, a life splayed painfully and generously
for our perusal, the fortuitous child of properly aligned
stars and planets, a one-time event, the book that had
to be written.
Jonathan Yardley, the Pulitzer Prize-winning
book critic for The Washington Post, draws our
attention to these facts and more in the recent Misfit,
his "impressionistic" account of the man behind the miracle.
As the following interview will attest, his biography
does much to uncover the events and circumstances which
made Exley the destructive individual that he was. But
it does so without the futile speculation so many literary
biographies employ to help explain the creative process.
Instead, Misfit uses Exley and his masterpiece
as an opportunity to explore the American literary themes
which they raise: the one-book syndrome, our fame-obsessed
society and the culture of autobiography.
Gadfly: Could you explain your relation
to A Fan's Notes and what about it allured you?
Yardley: I was headed off in the fall
of 1968 to Harvard University for a Nieman Fellowship
given annually to a dozen American journalists. In anticipation
of some pleasant reading—I was an editorial writer at
the time and the book editor with the Greensboro, North
Carolina Daily News—I went through my stack of
review copies and tossed a few new books into a box to
take with me, including A Fan's Notes which was
a memoir and seemed to be about professional football
of which I was a big fan. I read it in the spring of 1969
and, by that point, everybody had been telling me how
wonderful it was. A year later, Ballantine Books brought
out a paperback edition of the book and I used that as
an excuse to write a column about it. By the early winter
of 1974, I was reviewing for The New Republic and
I proposed A Fan's Notes to its literary
editor who was running an irregular series called "Reconsiderations."
That's when Fred Exley entered my life directly. One night,
my new wife was awakened by the phone at 2:00 in the morning.
It was Exley in the first of his innumerable and expensive
late-night drunken phone calls. He had heard that I was
working on this piece and wanted to make sure that I was
going to say what he wanted me to say. I was still young
and impressionable at that time, thought very highly of
A Fan's Notes and was honored that Fred
had called me. I didn't mind that he was drunk. From then
until his death in 1992, we had irregular contact by telephone
and letter. We never actually met. When his second book
Pages From a Cold Island came out, he was spending
much of his time in Singer Island, Florida, which wasn't
that far from Miami. He wanted me to come up, but those
were the days when I was still an enthusiastic consumer
of hard alcohol and I knew such a meeting would be bad
medicine. Something I said in Misfit and do feel
very strongly about is that people who loved A Fan's
Notes wanted nothing more than for Exley to produce
another masterpiece like it. We believed so deeply in
Fred's gifts and the extraordinary qualities of his first
book that we would have fallen over backwards to encourage
Fred and let him know that there were people who supported
him and wanted to see him live up to his full potential
once again.
I did notice in Misfit that your
reviews of Exley's later books were more positive than
your actual opinion of them. And other people intimately
associated with Exley fudged in similar ways to encourage
his potential. I have to admit that this disturbed me
because it isn't one of the roles I associate with literary
criticism.
There was something about Fred. I write
about the way his mother and sister over-protected him
and how people were always ready to take him in. He brought
out this nurturing quality in people. Why it was that
all of us put him on such a long leash, went the extra
mile, all the imaginable clichés, can't be explained.
You won't find the answer in Misfit because
it's an absolute mystery to me. I do mention that immediately
after he was born, he wasn't breathing. This obviously
distressed his mother. He learned as a very small boy
that if he held his breath he could get anything he wanted.
She was afraid. He was precious to her and she didn't
want to lose him. Very early on, this established a habit
of dependency on his part, a habit of servitude on the
part of his mother, and somehow he managed to establish
the same relationship with everybody else. It's a total
mystery.
You chalk a lot up to mystery.
In many ways, I think the central lesson
to be taken from Misfit is that Exley was a mystery.
And like any mystery, he can't be solved. I made some
decisions about what I was going to do with that book—mainly
keeping it short and almost impressionistic—which some
people just didn't like. They wanted a laundry list and
I wasn't going to give them that. I think the problem
that Misfit raises in the minds of some of the
people who've reviewed it is that it doesn't provide the
answers they want and expect to the questions that Fred's
life raised. But I thought the only way to handle it was
to delineate the questions and offer some possible answers.
We can't know, however, what the answers really are. All
of us are mysterious but Freddy was mysterious to the
Nth degree.
The way you wrote it seems to fly in
the face of any number of theories which see an understanding
of an individual behind the work as crucial to an understanding
of the work itself.
I disagree so strongly with those theories.
I think literary biography is just a form of higher gossip.
We read books and are curious about their authors. What
kind of guy was he? That's the basic question that we're
all asking. That's why we read biographies of William
Faulkner. And we all know that Faulkner, too, was a drunk,
that his personal relationships were hectic. He had feelings
for people that Freddy didn't have but was caught up in
the same internal world of imagination, memory, regret,
loss, insecurity and all the other things that combine
to produce creativity. These go on in an area that the
biographer simply can't reach. I say in the first paragraph
of Misfit that it's beyond the human capacity to
have full and intimate knowledge of another person. There
are parts of another person's mind and consciousness that
can't be accessed by anyone else.
I thought that you made it very clear
in your book that Exley embodied all that's best and worst
in American authors—their collective personality, their
struggles with productivity and fame. I saw the book as
more of a commentary on writing in the twentieth century
than a biography of Exley. Is that what you were trying
to convey?
Yes. There are basically two reasons
to write a biography of Fred Exley. One is that A Fan's
Notes aroused intense reactions on the part of many,
if not most, of the people who read it. And a lot of them
wondered how the reality of the book coincided and diverged
from Exley's actual life. That's one reason to write it
which, again, is a sort of higher gossip.
The only other reason to do it, it seemed
to me, was to draw some larger points from Fred Exley's
life as a writer. He sheds light on self-preoccupation—autobiography
as a theme in twentieth century American letters—and the
other central fact of American art which is that so many
people really do only produce one work of lasting significance.
I think fame, even if it comes in very small doses like
it was administered to Exley, is a deterrent to further
artistic production. It becomes a very serious distraction.
After the publication of A Fan's Notes, Fred Exley
became FREDERICK EXLEY, the author, literary persona,
someone journalists from sports columns would call to
ask for comments on the Superbowl. You can spend the rest
of your life doing that. Ernest Hemingway spent an awful
lot of his time doing stuff like that. Even Faulkner,
who was probably more faithful to his art than any other
important American writer of his day, wandered off to
the University of Virginia and allowed himself to become
a literary lion. By then, he was in his late fifties and
his productivity was probably fading anyway, but it was
still a distraction. I think the two reasons that Fred
never wrote anything that could stand alongside A Fan's
Notes were, one, that he was literally a one-book
author and, two, his standing as a second-echelon literary
lion gave him other things to do than work.
As new generations push forth their own
writers, can we expect fewer and fewer good books to arise
out of our fame-obsessed culture?
We can expect this, but not for the reason
you're proffering. I think that the most damaging influence
on American literary fiction is that it's now situated
inside the academy. I love universities. I love almost
everything about them. But they're very narrow, small,
self-contained, hermetic places. When people who write
literary fiction spend their lives preoccupied with the
concerns of the academy, rather than the concerns of American
life, I think it's inevitable—we can see it in what's
being written—that American literary fiction is going
to become constipated and self-regarding. That to me is
the greatest problem. Another one is that many of the
people who might have been drawn into literary work a
generation ago are now being drawn into other kinds of
creative expression. Various technologies have opened
up—television, movies, all that stuff. The rewards here
are spectacularly high for the people who succeed and
so this is where a lot of gifted and talented people are
directing themselves.
In Exley's case, a single masterpiece
emerged from a tormented life. We, as readers, are blessed,
but wouldn't it have been better had we been denied the
novel and Exley granted a happy life? What's the proper
attitude toward such a phenomenon?
I think that Fred Exley would have answered
your question by saying that his life couldn't have been
happy had he not written A Fan's Notes. Modern
Library brought out a new edition of the book to coincide
with my biography. I wrote a very brief introduction to
it and I did say there what I should have said in Misfit
which is that Fred Exley was put on earth to write A
Fan's Notes. It was the reason for his existence.
It grants him a kind of immortality that an ordinary person
in a white picket-fence life can't have. A Fan's Notes
is how Fred Exley tried to heal his wounds, give them
expression and understand them.
Last summer with Misfit in print
and soon to be released, I found myself with the new Modern
Library edition of the book on the table sitting next
to me. I had been reading this book almost constantly
for two years but as Fred's biographer. I had been looking
for evidence. When I picked it up and just started to
read it—just to read the prose—I was absolutely knocked
flat on my ass. It's so powerful, so courageous. He reaches
down inside himself in ways that all of today's memoirs
wouldn't begin to understand how to do. They're exploiting
themselves with their "victimization" and all the other
things about which they whine. Freddy was trying to understand
himself, was trying to exorcise those demons. It's an
amazing performance. This is a rather aggressive response
to your question but I think that people are what they
are. And we have to hope that within the limits of happiness
and sanity and everything else that is granted to them,
they can have lives as productive as possible. I think
a life that produces A Fan's Notes is a
really productive life.
Exley was an alcoholic but he never really
used drink to spark creativity. Does this mean that he
was more of a natural writer than the Beats or someone
like Faulkner?
That's a good question. I wish that I
had faced that more directly in the book. In a very odd
way, Fred was a disciplined man. And it shows not just
in his ability to stop drinking in order to write, but
also in little oddities like him keeping neat apartments.
Every place he lived was always neat. In nearly every
way, he was a slob and yet there was a kind of orderliness
that belied the unconventionality that he sought so hard
to project. When push came to shove, Fred turned to his
desk and started to write. Now I do believe that the mystery
of A Fan's Notes had to do with the enforced sobriety
and discipline of the mental institution in which it was
written. Fred was a terrible, terrible, terrible drunk.
He was world-class. I think if he hadn't gotten lucky
as a young and relatively sober man, and had he not discovered
literature as a way to express painful things, he just
would have been a drunk and nothing else. He would have
been dead a lot earlier than he was. He had inside him
somewhere—it was obviously at his core—the desire to tell
his story and he somehow found the discipline to do it.
The last two books and the odds and ends that were his
magazine articles were written at a period when he had
no external disciplinary force. He was never again institutionalized
for anything more than hospital treatment. And so the
discipline to produce these works had to come from inside
himself.
You talk several times in your book about
the "literary self-image" and how Exley was of the generation
that looked to men like Hemingway for an example of the
writing life.
I think his generation was the last of
male American writers to whom the Hemingway image was
a central, shaping influence.
Do writers today have the same sort of
figures upon which to model their lives?
That's an interesting question, too.
We've had some very important and accomplished writers
since the Hemingway/Faulkner/Fitzgerald/Wolfe generation,
but we haven't had the larger-than-life figures that those
four men were. I have enormous respect for, say, Eudora
Welty, Saul Bellow and William Styron. But these are people
who've spent their lives writing. They haven't been jumping
in fountains like Fitzgerald or going to bull-fights like
Hemingway or being a larger-than-life drunk like Wolfe
or the squire of Oxford like Faulkner. They're not public
personalities. Even the reluctant Faulkner became a public
personality. We no longer have such dynamic individuals
to emulate—unless you count Norman Mailer. And this is
purely a matter of personal taste, but I think any writer
who would use Mailer as a literary exemplum would be out
of his mind. I can't remember whether it was in Misfit
or somewhere else, but I do argue that the Hemingway generation
was the great romantic era of American letters. These
were romantic figures and, in many ways, they were all
romantics, too. And that's gone. A lot of history has
happened since then and none of it's likely to trigger
the romantic impulse.
There's a lot of talk in the film realm
about how films are no longer influenced by real life
but by past films. Can the same be said of writers? Are
they drawing their material not from outside life anymore,
but from their own internal lives?
I think that most so-called literary
fiction unabashedly draws as its central resource the
inner life of the writer. American writers, with only
the rarest of exceptions, make no effort at all to discover
what's going on in the larger society, unless they take
a sort of contemptuous, superannuated, 1960s view of it—as
in, say, the fiction of Robert Stone, Don DeLillo or Russell
Banks. I can't remember where I read about it—it's been
several years ago—but there's a guy who makes a modestly
remunerative career by doing research for writers. So
that when John Updike decides he's going to make Rabbit
Angstrom a Toyota dealer in one of the later Rabbit books,
he hires this guy to find out what it's like to be a Toyota
dealer. It doesn't seem to have crossed his mind that
he should do this himself. Apparently, this guy has a
lot of clients, some of them relatively well-known. He's
a leg-man for people who—I'll put it in my own words—are
too damn lazy, too uninterested, too incurious to go out
and look for themselves. I feel very, very strongly that
the reason there was such a tremendous and responsive
readership for Bonfire of the Vanities was that,
whatever one may think of its merits as fiction, Tom Wolfe
went out into the world to write about it, a world that
readers recognized because it bore some resemblance to
their own or to one in which they might someday find themselves.
I think there must have been a big, collective sigh of
relief among genuine readers: here's a novel that's about
my experiences. When I was young, there were writers like
John Marquand, John O'Hara and Irwin Shaw who were writing
about America and American middle-class life. They were
writing well. They were writing seriously. They also had
readers and something that could be called popularity.
This has completely vanished from the American literary
scene. We don't have anything even remotely comparable
to it anymore. I think it's a great loss.
You've mentioned all these authors and
legendary works of fiction. Where precisely does A
Fan's Notes stand in relation to the rest of American
literature?
It's presented as a work of fiction,
but is essentially and transparently not. In an era when
the confessional memoir has become the flavor of the hour—everybody's
writing them—A Fan's Notes is the confessional
memoir that every other one must be measured against.
It's the model of the genre. It's not self-exploitative,
but self-exploring. It's not an act of hubris, but an
act of self-inquiry. And it's an attempt to connect a
self, however oddly, however perversely, with the larger
world. Freddy wanted to make himself interesting to other
people. Too many memoirists, most of whom are too young
and callow to have an experience that would interest other
people, also are just not interested in trying to make
us interested. They think that they are so inherently
fascinating that all they have to do is start writing
and we will all gasp with admiration. On the other hand,
Fred made the stupendous effort to entertain us. It's
an amazingly funny book, an incredible pleasure to read.
The prose is rich, the anecdotes are funny and the incidents
of story are so true and telling. Now this is someone
who was really busting his butt to make us want to read
his story. That's a very rare phenomenon. I wrote a piece
for the Post back in the very early 80s about a
little less than two dozen American works of fiction in
the twentieth century that I regarded as essential reading.
A Fan's Notes was one of those and would certainly
be one now. Every once in a while, I have reason to go
back and look at that list. There might be a book or two
I'd put on or take off, but A Fan's Notes, in my
foreseeable future, is right there. I think it's one of
the real literary monuments of this century in this country.