{"id":2269,"date":"2012-02-03T08:21:23","date_gmt":"2012-02-03T13:21:23","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.gadflyonline.com\/wpblog\/?p=2269"},"modified":"2012-07-15T20:11:06","modified_gmt":"2012-07-16T00:11:06","slug":"he-finds-his-voice-forgets-it-again-by-mariel-glass","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/he-finds-his-voice-forgets-it-again-by-mariel-glass\/","title":{"rendered":"He Finds His Voice, Forgets It Again… by Mariel Glass"},"content":{"rendered":"

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There is an old parable about a man in a lighthouse, but I have forgotten how it goes. It begins, \u201cthere was a man who came to a lighthouse.\u201d<\/p>\n

I do not know why I am here, other than that I have always been here.<\/p>\n

Beneath the cliffs, I hear voices, wailing from the rocks.
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A kind of snow blindness.<\/p>\n

Tracts of white space like voids of stars bursting in the chest.<\/p>\n

The terror of being alone, unable to speak…<\/p>\n

Opening and closing, the great valves of the sea.<\/p>\n

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The parable of a man who has forgotten the taste of sunlight, the smell of the water\u2026 who realizes after a long time that he inhabits someone else\u2019s memory, tries to speak with someone else\u2019s voice, tries to keep someone else\u2019s head above water\u00a0–
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I do not know the sound of my own voice. If were to speak, I would hear another.
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The loss is plain, unbearable, cold. The images will shatter us if we hold them inside too long. Mermaids\u2019 voices, burning like phosphor.<\/p>\n

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I was born near the sea and I have not left it. I do not remember my mother and father. I did not long to be born. Yet I am sure that the voices that whisper to me are not my own, the voices of the dead I once knew. Am I too a voice… or am I keeper of the pale light-shell of the dead?
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The parable of a man who lives in an unpeopled world. He finds one day that he too is no longer a person\u2026 I forget how the rest goes…\u00a0Songthroat of the waterwind, something about stars, the way she died… the sound of her voice.<\/p>\n

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Absence, like water, and it folds and rushes down upon itself, too, like water, and she is everywhere, but the sea\u00a0takes her, rips her away from me- like loose seaweed torn from the rocks, she calls back to me.<\/p>\n

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The parable of a man who was once a singer, whose voice has been drowned in the sea, turned to water.
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A black wind crumples the sand. Her breath is inexhaustible. The wind rakes itself back through the cold waves. One-legged sandpipers fold together over the water… I whisper something, call to them, but they cannot hear me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

There is an old parable about a man in a lighthouse, but I have forgotten how it goes. It begins, \u201cthere was a man who came to a lighthouse.\u201d I do not know why I am here, other than that I have always been here. Beneath the cliffs, I hear voices, wailing from the rocks. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4,219,199],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2269"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2269"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2269\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3212,"href":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2269\/revisions\/3212"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2269"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2269"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2269"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}