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\"SimpleThoughts\"<\/a><\/p>\n

I\u2019ve seen a lot of horrible things.\u00a0 Since I was a child, I witnessed things as well as experienced them.\u00a0 I like to forget, but I can\u2019t.\u00a0 Those memories will always be there, waiting for me to find them again, and these days, I just don\u2019t want to be bothered.\u00a0 But I seem to be fighting now every single day.<\/p>\n

Take yesterday for example.\u00a0 I left work a bit early, and maybe I stopped too soon at that STOP sign.\u00a0 I nearly collided with the other car that also stopped briefly at their STOP sign, but then she backed off.\u00a0 I got onto the Palisades Parkway only to race against a light green car that seemed eager in merging in the spot that I was in.\u00a0 Finally, they moved up ahead and then got into the right lane, and I thought that was that until I reached the infamous traffic circle between the Palisades and Route 6.\u00a0 Then, I went toe to toe with a black SUV, who nearly went into the opposite traffic lane, just to cut me off.\u00a0 Maybe, that was it, but no, some lady tried to squeeze her car against mine at the other merger point, so she could be one car ahead.\u00a0 She could\u2019ve caused an accident.\u00a0 She was that close, but the brain in her head must\u2019ve finally switched off auto pilot.\u00a0 And here I was fighting with idiots once again on the road, and I\u2019m tired of being bothered by them.\u00a0 But nobody today seems to be able to drive or they just want to cut loose and go road rage.<\/p>\n

My job sucks.\u00a0 I know, I know.\u00a0 I should be grateful to have a job, but I seem to be riding the Titanic.\u00a0 We\u2019ll be merging soon, and we\u2019re already taking on water.\u00a0 Somebody jumped ship, and now we\u2019re running around like rats afraid to drown.\u00a0 And I got uprooted and slammed into a shadow of the one now leaving, and I\u2019m not qualified for this job.\u00a0 I need to leave.\u00a0 It\u2019s time.\u00a0 I just need to cut loose and go, but I\u2019m trapped, afraid to drown.\u00a0 And I may go down with this ship, and nobody\u2019s going to save me.<\/p>\n

I keep asking myself one simple question.\u00a0 How did I get here?\u00a0 How did I get so lost?\u00a0 I took so many wrong turns in my life, and I\u2019m sorry for that.\u00a0 I can lose count of all the wrong people that I let into my life, but I can barely count on two hands the right people that tried to guide and protect me.\u00a0 My grandmother, may she rest in peace, was my guardian angel, and she gave me a second chance at life.\u00a0 I blew it.\u00a0 I think I did, finding myself in the same damn maze again and again, and I can\u2019t get out.\u00a0 This isn\u2019t what I should be doing with my life, but what should I be doing?\u00a0 That\u2019s the right question to ask, but I have no answers.\u00a0 I could\u2019ve died last year, and thank God, I didn\u2019t.\u00a0 But the world was revealed to me, and I\u2019m tired of this crap.<\/p>\n

So, what do I do?\u00a0 I don\u2019t know.\u00a0 I\u2019m waiting for the ship to go down.\u00a0 Maybe, my talent is the candle still burning.\u00a0 I don\u2019t know.\u00a0 I have no answers.\u00a0 I just remember the past, the horror stories of my life that I now bury down into fiction.\u00a0 Read my stories, and you\u2019ll know me, the real me.\u00a0 Nobody sees me for what I am.\u00a0 I\u2019m still a ghost here, but I\u2019m still here, trying to figure a way out.\u00a0 One thing I do know for sure is that I don\u2019t need any more horror stories in my life.\u00a0 I\u2019ve seen and experienced enough, so I hope to burn these chapters behind me for good, hopefully soon and just start over.\u00a0 I need to start over and start living my life.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I\u2019ve seen a lot of horrible things. Since I was a child, I witnessed things as well as experienced them. I like to forget, but I can\u2019t. Those memories will always be there, waiting for me to find them again, and these days, I just don\u2019t want to be bothered. But I seem to be fighting now every single day. Take yesterday for example. I left work a bit early, and maybe I stopped too soon at that STOP sign. I nearly collided with the other car that also stopped briefly at their STOP sign, but then she backed off. I got onto the Palisades Parkway only to race against a light green car that seemed eager in merging in the spot that I was in. Finally, they moved up ahead and then got into the right lane, and I thought that was that until I reached the infamous traffic circle between the Palisades and Route 6. Then, I went toe to toe with a black SUV, who nearly went into the opposite traffic lane, just to cut me off. READ MORE.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":52,"featured_media":6398,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4,218,219],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6239"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/52"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6239"}],"version-history":[{"count":8,"href":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6239\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6409,"href":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6239\/revisions\/6409"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/6398"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6239"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=6239"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=6239"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}