{"id":7324,"date":"2014-09-01T12:00:33","date_gmt":"2014-09-01T16:00:33","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.gadflyonline.com\/home\/?p=7324"},"modified":"2014-09-05T09:17:46","modified_gmt":"2014-09-05T13:17:46","slug":"abashed","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/gadflyonline.com\/home\/index.php\/abashed\/","title":{"rendered":"Abashed"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"chagrin1\"<\/a><\/p>\n

January stuffed me into<\/p>\n

This tar pit pipe<\/p>\n

If you could just take your knife from my lungs,<\/p>\n

That heavy sob still resounding,<\/p>\n

The unbalance has obliterated cosmos<\/p>\n

Unspeakable Unraveling<\/p>\n

I would sleep for hours…<\/p>\n

Fall was the heralding scream<\/p>\n

Sounding with the descending leaves<\/p>\n

Played a taunting tune<\/p>\n

Scoffing today<\/p>\n

In us<\/p>\n

The heart has grown weary of disrupting sobs<\/p>\n

Veins turned vile green<\/p>\n

Arteries clogged with dubiety<\/p>\n

Love wheezes with a winter cough,<\/p>\n

Growing harder to proclaim<\/p>\n

Between labored gasps and effortful patience<\/p>\n

Spring does not run happily forward<\/p>\n

Rather, Sputters into our world of lukewarm passion<\/p>\n

Midway in sullenness and bickering<\/p>\n

It remains addled<\/p>\n

New vines paralyzed before the renewal is even concieved<\/p>\n

What jovial adoration reverbrated formerly<\/p>\n

Has sunken with the palace<\/p>\n

Built upon resolute devotion<\/p>\n

And haunts all attemps to reconsile<\/p>\n

The hope of a new day<\/p>\n

Has long retreated<\/p>\n

Freezing with the skin that is no longer touched.<\/p>\n

Weakly crawling to beg at knees that have deserted me<\/p>\n

I pummel below at the sight of your face,<\/p>\n

Turned from me.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

You will not weep in hopelessness<\/p>\n

You will not weep<\/p>\n

You will not<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Turn to look at me.<\/p>\n

How daringly chilly those eyes burn.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

—<\/p>\n

Jamie Williams grew up in Oneonta, AL. She started writing at the age of 11, and her work is mostly inspired by fiery love gone awry. She loves reading, the outdoors, animals, Italian food, and rock music. She currently resides in Virginia with her children and cats.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

January stuffed me into<\/p>\n

This tar pit pipe<\/p>\n

If you could just take your knife from my lungs,<\/p>\n

That heavy sob still resounding,<\/p>\n

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